I need to stop being so fucking self conscious. It ruins my relationships. It ruins my confidence. It ruins everything. I wish I could wake up and realize that I am beautiful. I blame the media. But most of all...I just blame myself for not being strong enough to love who I am.
Relationships are not perfect since everyone is individually flawed. Don’t aim for a relationship where you have to constantly impress, always dress your best, or be on your most proper behavior. Yes, that’s how things start off, but after a while, you should begin to be able to let loose and relax - you should be able to find a friend within your significant other. Love is just more than loving the other person, it’s also about not forgetting about yourself. You’re important, too.
Find a relationship where you can be yourself. One where you don’t always have to go “out” to call it a date. You can just stay home and cook dinner together. A date where you can be in your pajamas and still think the other looks their best - the sexiest they’ve ever been. One where a movie shared in bed is the best thing ever because you can snuggle up against each others’ warmth. A date that could end up with the both of you falling asleep content in each other’s arms and wake up the next morning feeling satisfied because you two were right where you belonged the whole time - TOGETHER.
Search for a relationship that doesn’t require you to always be sweet and mushy to each other - one where you can joke around and make smart remarks at each other, but still laugh at it and not take things too seriously. One where you can enjoy life and the little things together; where life isn’t tough because you two have each other to endure the rough times with. And although your love isn’t like the ones portrayed in those romance movies, those raw moments that you two share are even BETTER because you created those memories with each other and that’s what really matters.